Releasing Rage Rainbows

Written by FairyDoula. Posted in Lara's blog

Taming our minds! Therapy and life together is a heady exhausting experience! The places the kinetic muscle testing leads my therapist and I to , to heal and release are sometimes quite hard for my thinking mind to accept. I’m ok with healing stuff from my lifetime so far , from my conception, from my genetic family line all these are acceptable to me . However , healing trauma from past lives ?!!!! This I found harder to accept , my brain felt angry , why should I have to do that too? Why can’t I just heal me and get on with my life ? Another bit of my brain lobbies for attention pointing out that my Soul Is eternal So any experience of my Soul is my experience. I’m still annoyed and half half don’t really wanna go there ! But I’m in therapy because my brain and emotions are too hair trigger extreme for me to function ably so I shut my brain up And I get on! I call in my Angelic support group Billy rose, Angel Benjammin Nanna Ivy Granny Ethel , Ben To be strong for me and to communicate with this past life piece of me , seeing as they are there already! I was then aware that my gang all linked arms and stood around me Closely protecting me . Then they said , as one , ‘ She’s really REALLY angry! ‘ So Sandra and I used AIT , the release thru my chakras one , and we started to release ‘All the rage ‘ On the first round from crown to root , I felt really sick and literally heaved ! feeling a tight pressure on my Throat. We went through my chakras again and the next time I could feel a hot prickling all over me like pins of fire , hot and angry and strong but in pieces ! We went round again and this time at my heart I began the cry and as we finished and I sat , a woman came to me and told me her story Alice in the 1800’s , married to a drunk who beat and harmed her , one day he nearly strangled her , she fought back and killed him ! Then they hung her ! No wonder she was pissed off! I felt her peace as her rage was released and her story witnessed, and then she left me . The next 24 hrs were very strange , I was grieving, silent and crying, not really able to explain to myself or others what was happening. I finally realised I was grieving that my soul knew what it felt like to kill. It finally passed , and I am a bit gentler to others and myself than I was before . My brain still jumps around madly thinking ! I’m Learning to quiet it’s chatter . It’s not easy to break a habit of a lifetime but I’m giving it a go! Here’s what I do! Try it and let me know how it works for you! Once your body is relaxed , focus on your breath. It is common for thoughts to arise and for you to want to attend to them. Each time this occurs focus specifically on your breathing. Some find that when they actually think of their nostrils and the air entering and exiting that this brings their focus back. Other techniques that assist in decreasing mind wandering are the use of a mantra, a word or phrase that is repeated over and over, or focusing on a candle or single object. By doing so it is impossible to give those wandering thoughts attention. In some practices, the teacher gives the mantra to the student who tells no one else the mantra. Find that which works best for you. Everyone is different. Mine is’ lovelovelove’ It will take time and effort. Don’t be discouraged. It may take a few weeks or even longer before you start seeing the profound effect of a quiet mind. You won’t have the same desire to emotionally engage in thoughts that often are negative or distracting. The calmness you felt from simply relaxing will increase because when you are not distracted by internal dialogue the associated emotional response does not occur. It is this response that has an effect on the rest of your body. Practice the above exercise for 20-30 minutes per day. Make the time. The reward for patience is clarity of thought. For me It’s starting to work! I’m holding my breath less and the voices in my head banging on about how shit I am are quieter and sometimes not there at all! Yay! I know we all have shit , some really awful some not so bad , but shit all the same . So I’m putting this out there to help , cos if it can help me then It must be pretty good, cos Im a stubborn mofo!!!!!’ Hope it helps ! Xxxlovelaraxxx

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