Let it Go!!

Written by FairyDoula. Posted in Lara's blog

“Let it go, let it go, can’t hold it back anymore….” ‘Frozen’

The first week into therapy in 2019 has moved something in me , this feels good. I’m not too sure what has moved and I never really knew in my conscious mind that I was carrying it!
So alongside the happy released feeling I also have a feeling of middling confusion. Not massive but unfamiliar and I am unsure about how much to look into it.

My logical mind says , you feel happy and positive, energetic and empowered, that’s brilliant! Let’s get on with feeling like that and living! Another piece of my mind asks , is it really that simple ? Can I really just track back Traumatic responses in my present to energetic blockages in my past and release them even if I do not know the details? Another part says , it’s cloudy there for a reason! It’s stuff you’ve carried genetically not anything to do with Lara in this Here and Now , that’s why it has come up for release!

It’s here in this dialogue that I begin to see my trauma based behaviour pattern . This part of me needs to know, needs to be in control because if not … argggh! …. My newly recognised sovereign feeling , my unconditional Love place is completely at ease with accepting not all needs to be dug up and fully seen all the time always . My logical , kind , loving self says , let it be, you don’t have to experience this trauma too! You have experienced everything else as Lara that has brought you to this point to be able to heal this place in your genetic family line so you yourself and your ancestors past and future are healed .

It’s all getting a bit big and scary for me again now, but then I breathe deeply for 3 breaths , in and out , focussing on my roots going into the Earth and my branches reaching up to the Sky , I breathe 3 more breaths and allow myself to accept energy into my roots and branches from Earth and Sky to fill my Heartspace. With another 3 breaths my Heart feeling full I invite myself to allow the positive energy from Earth and Sky ,Roots and Branches to fill my whole physical body including my Mind . So now in 3 last deep breaths I allow myself to feel full and energised at Body, Mind and Soul levels .
I re read what I have written , and my mind fills with the old Beatles song ‘Let it Be ‘

“When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be“

So with a bit of belief and courage I step into a new way of thinking. I’ve put my confusion with the situation down and I have allowed myself to accept a new reality is possible where I don’t need to know everything all the time ! Wow what a relief!

It takes practice for me to stay in this headspace because I am so used to behaving in my trauma triggered pattern. But now I know that this is a pattern I have a possibility and a good reason to step into and keep consciously creating a reality for myself that serves me and my highest good! Yay!
So here they are . My first tentative steps into a New reality at the start of this New year. I send them out to Us all as inspiration and information . If you fancy telling me what you’ve experienced ,if you use this breath meditation that would be fab! There’s no right or wrong –  just experiences!

“This little light of mine , I’m gonna let it shine , let it shine , let it shine , let it shine!”

Xxxlovelaraxxx

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